Monday, October 29, 2007

My Story

When i was in college there were loads of people who told me tat i would never make it big in life.. and here i am today by the grace of god working for a good company and when i look back at all the years so far.. makes me wonder .. how did i even get here.. wakes me up to the realities to the fact its the almighty alone who makes and mends people and i believe tat if u trust him he will lead u in paths which may seem too much for an ordinary person to see and believe

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Seasons..

Everyday that we live.. is truly a season in itself.. i have a friend who actually made me listen to this song.. which goes like four seasons in one day.. the band is crowded housse.. i should tell you it really did make me think a lot.. If we look around us.. after an hour after we ve woke up.. how many different emotions do we travel through..happiness, sadness, anxiety, stress just to name a few..

truly.. Everyday is a season in itself..

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Salik or alik

Salik.. the new toll system in dubai .. they say it will reduce traffic.. bla bla.. am not bothered.. coz i know it wont help in any way.. all roads.. which were atleast commutable.. are now gonna be .. not so commutable.. yes for sure filled with traffic those are tryin to get out by not paying salik..

now now.. consider the payment.. 4 dhs one trip to a max of 24 dhs.. wen was the last time u as a reader .. got a salary hike.. was it wen the market had an inflation or was it coz salik was introduced.. does make no sense to me.. how is a person who gets harldly any money to meet his days meet in terms.. now now.. where am i going .. RTA says there is not for money... its for people to use car pool and public transport.. well.. lets wait for a taxi .. my odds for a taxi in the morning.. needle in a hay stack.. car pool great idea.. i thought such things werent allowed under the law.. u could be fined.. Dhs.2000 now tats a good bargain.. aint save 4 and pay 2000 to the cops.. well COPS would just say ur using ur car as a cab.. now again.. buses do we even find one??? i never see one..

is there any traffice @ 2 in the night.. well salik still runs u for 4 dhs.. crazy they are planning for a better dubai with people having salaries over a million.. Dubai police aint supporting salik.. not the public.. well i do support salik.. provided they get their act together... more busses.. not cabs.. i aint reach.. please wait till we have the metro atlesat.. now tats another story.. next journel..

wat worries me more.. as my local friends saya it aint salik.. meaning "clear way" its ALIK " get stuck".. the biggest mistake in the history of DUBAI- RTA.

god saves us.. or give us the salaries and work timings of these lucky people @ RTA 10AM to 2PM... aint they working too hard to make the commoner who leaves his home @ 5 in the morning and get back @ 9 in the evening.. thanks to salik and RTA we can sleep on the roads.. they can charge us the rent also.. more money for RTA..


hey has anyone thought abt the poor mans ride... motor bikes?? SALIK TAGS ON THEIR HELMET???????????????????? wow.. wat an innovation... hehehehe.. long live RTA

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Mismanaged Records..

How often do we face in life.. problems with mismanaged records.. well its not always possible for one single man to move things around him.. he is @ times forced to look at people around him.. and wat do u do the when the person next to u or either dependent on is not so.. persuasive with things that he is doing.. what possibly can go wrong will be for the one who is doing things in a proper way..

Think about it.. care for the one next to you..

Monday, May 21, 2007

Long time..

well the last time i wrote was somewhere around march 27th.. even if it at time you feel like writing .. it never really works out the way it has two.. then i wondered to myself.. wat really could be the reason then it stuck my head.. for ur pen to be in motion.. u need to have a few things in the right place.. i guess u can easily rank them too..

1. Your mind has to be in right place.. mean unwanted problems or thoughts which really ruin your state of mind
2. The people around : well i guess the above is directly proportional to your mind state... if the people around make u feel miserable i am sure ur state of mind goes for a ride
3.Time.. well i guess you always needs this to be around should you feel like doing something or anything creative.. time is something which can never be bought but i do believe tat it can be made
4.Silence.. do i really mean the silence on the outside.. which i think can in no way be made watever you do.. so.. silence within yourself on in the inside is surely needed for such creative thoughts to follow.

well now the reason for me not writing is evident .. have loads of things to set in place..

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Performance Oriented... Not mine.. Thanks to a friend

People often are extremely performance oriented. We learn from the time we are little, the better we perform the more love we receive. In our relationship with God, our thinking often continues in this pattern. We think God will love us and bless us more, the better we perform. But because we aren't able to behave right all the time, we start working and striving, trying to overcome all our weakness.


Our worth is not based on how acceptable we can make ourselves to God. God is looking for people with a right heart attitude toward Him, not a perfect performance record.



2nd Chronicles 16:9 says, "For the eyes of the Lord run to and froth throughout the whole earth, to shew himself strong on behalf of them whose heart is perfect toward him"



Whose heart is perfect toward him means to have a right heart attitude toward God – to love as much as we know how to love Him; to want what He wants; to want His will; to want to do His will.



We don't earn God's love; we don't earn His blessings. We can go to him at anytime and have our needs met. Hebrews 4:16 days, "Let us then fearlessly and confidently and boldly draw near to the throne of grace (the throne of God's unmerited favor), that we may receive mercy (for our failure) and find grace to help in good time for every need (appropriately held and well timed help, coming just when we need it).



People who live and walk in intentional disobedience, but want God to bless them anyway, may think that we don't have to make an effort to overcome our weaknesses to win God's approval. The truth is this: God will use us in spite of our weaknesses and will help us overcome them; we don't have to struggle to overcome them on our own, but we must be progressing toward overcoming them.



God wants us to come to terms with ourselves and learn our value is not in what we do but in who we are. He wants us to be willing to be who we are, weaknesses and all.



Here is the Contrast…The devil wants to bombard us with opportunities to think negative thoughts about ourselves so that we will return to that pattern of thinking most of us learned growing up. He wants us to be contemplating what is wrong with us instead of thinking about what is right with us.



Many people develop a shame-based nature as a result of unfair and unkind treatment by different people- parents, school teachers, friends, strangers. Our attitudes and opinions of ourselves are programmed into us over a period of time.



Dear ones, don't allow how other people treat you to determine your value. People who lack confidence have a private little war going on in their lives. If you want to increase your self-acceptance and your opinion of yourself, decide right here and now that not one more negative thing about you will ever come out of your mouth.

Monday, March 26, 2007

Torrents-- Latest in Download Technology

Well i ve been using lime wire to download stuff over the net.. i was introduced to this new.. source of download which is called Torrent.. i know its not new.. for me atleast it is.. well trust me anythin u want over the net is available.. including the latest movies.. softwares.. i was surprised to even find movies which were realeased days back avaialable for download..

aint there in copyright law applicable.. too much to think for me .. but boy its an awesome way to download..

Friday, March 23, 2007

Correct Me if i am wrong

The most destructive habit...................................Worry
The greatest joy............................................Giving
The greatest loss..................................Loss of respect

The most dangerous pariah...............................A gossiper
The world's most incredible computer.....................The brain
The worst thing to be without.................................Hope

The most satisfying work............................Helping others
The ugliest personality trait..........................Selfishness
The most endangered species......................Dedicated leaders

The deadliest weapon....................................The tongue
The two most power-filled words............................"I Can"
The greatest asset...........................................Faith

Our greatest natural resource............................Our youth
The greatest "shot in the arm".......................Encouragement
The greatest problem to overcome..............................Fear

The most worthless emotion...............................Self-pity
The most beautiful attire...................................SMILE!
The most prized possession...............................Integrity

The most effective sleeping pill.....................Peace of mind
The most crippling failure disease.........................Excuses
The most powerful force in life...............................Love

The most powerful channel of communication..................Prayer
The most contagious spirit..............................Enthusiasm

A good Lesson

A kindergarten teacher has decided to let her class play a game. The teacher told each child in the class to bring along a plastic bag containing a few potatoes. Each potato will be given a name of a person that the child hates, so the number of potatoes that a child will put in his/her plastic bag will depend on the number of people he/she hates.

So when the day came, every child brought some potatoes with the name of the people he/she hated. Some had 2 potatoes; some 3 while some up to 5 potatoes.

The teacher then told the children to carry with them the potatoes in the plastic bag wherever they go (even to the toilet) for 1 week.

Days after days passed by, and the children started to complain due to the unpleasant smell let out by the rotten potatoes. Besides, those having 5 potatoes also had to carry heavier bags.

After 1 week , the children were relieved because the game had finally ended.

The teacher asked: "How did you feel while carrying the potatoes with you for 1 week?" The children let out their frustrations and started complaining of the trouble that they had to go through having to carry the heavy and smelly potatoes wherever they go.

Then the teacher told them the hidden meaning behind the game.

The teacher said: "This is exactly the situation when you carry your hatred for somebody inside your heart. The stench of hatred will contaminate your heart and you will carry it with you wherever you go. If you cannot tolerate the smell of rotten potatoes for just 1 week, can you imagine what is it like to have the stench of hatred in your heart for your lifetime???"

Moral of the story:

Throw away any hatred for anyone from your heart so that you will not carry sins for a life time. Forgiving others is the best attitude to take!

Life is to be fortified by many friendships.To love & to be loved is the greatest happiness.

Fate determines who comes into our lives.The heart determines who stays.

Thanks for reading........

Think about it..

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend;
Someone who changes your life just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop;
Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.
Always try to help a friend in need
Believe in yourself
Be brave...but it's ok to be afraid sometimes
Study hard
Give lots of kisses
Laugh often
Don't be overly concerned with your weight, it's just a number
Always try to see the glass half full
Meet new people, even if they look different to you
Remain calm, even when it seems hopeless
Take lots of naps..
Be weird whenever you have the chance
Love your friends, no matter who they are
Don't waste food
RELAX
Take an occasional risk
Try to have a little fun each day.
...it's important
Work together as a team
Share a joke with friends
Fall in love with someone..
...and say "I love you" often
Express yourself creatively
Be conscious of your appearance
Always be up for surprises
Love someone with all of your heart
Share with friends
Watch your step
It will get better
There is always someone who loves you more than you know
Exercise to keep fit
Live up to your name
Seize the Moment
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between
Indulge in the things you truly love
Cherish every Sunday
At the end of the day... PRAY
....... and close your eyes
And smile at least once a day

Reality .. World Cup 2007

Well ICC world Cup 2007 .. Look around the ground.. wats the first the first thing you see.. An add for Roopa Vest.. Just imagine the popularity of the game in india.. an vest add in windies.. for an indian product.. LG, Hutch.. Indian Oil.. i think almost all the hoardings in the ground goes wid indian products... well if the indian team for once.. if they did look around the ground.. would not tat be sufficient for them to play the game to the fullest.. all they need is passion..
let see the odds.. why would they need any ways.. officailly they get payed.. more than they deserve.. those crores which come in on ..ads and promos which they do.. well not keeping it officia.. those truck load of cash which comes in from .. match fixing.. wish for once.. they did play wid passion and not for the money.. those millions being let down.. coz dese..11 men who let their entire nation down.. some day.. some team.. will understand.. the heart beat of those millions around..

Imagine.. those promos .. by all those companies tryin to cash on the world cup.. songs.. ads... wish the team promos.. etc.. i do not know.. when we the people gonna learn.. not to trust dese.. people.. i am sitting late and watchin the match.. for wat reason... even wen indias 7 wickets down.. and i dont see any chance .. in hell for them to make it through.. still deep inside.. i hope tat .. they have some passion and make it through.. all we as fans can do is wish.. and tats all .. some day.. some day..

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

A Time for Everything

Ecclesiastes 3:1 "There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven "

Well let me explain it from two different angles first..

Bibilical

Ruth 4:12 "And let thy house be like the house of Pharez, whom Tamar bare unto Judah, of the seed which the LORD shall give thee of this young woman.

This is the blessing which was given to Ruth & Boaz on their wedding.. well it did seem to odd for me at first, lets look and see who Tamar.Tamar was the daughter-in-law of Judah, to whose eldest son, Er, she was married (Gen. 38:6). After her husband's death, she was married to Onan, his brother (8), and on his death, Judah promised to her that his third son, Shelah, would become her husband. This promise was not fulfilled, and Tamar disguised herself as a temple prostitute and offered herself to her father-in-law Judah. She claimed his staff, signet and cloak as pledge of payment. From this union, Tamar became pregnant. When Judah accused her of fornication, she produced the staff and signet and identified Judah himself as the father. Tamar had twin sons, Zarah and Pharez (Gen. 38:30). Tamar enabled Judah to have children of non-Canaanite lineage.

Well from the above, i was surpised why such a blessing for at a marriage function i would not want such a blessing.. then if u read the book of Deutronomy.. ( i cannot re-collect the verse) if u have an off spring out of wedlock only the 12 th generation are allowed to enter the temple. Now, Lets look into this geneology..

Ruth 4: 18 - 22
18 Now these are the generations of Pharez: Pharez begat Hezron,
19 And Hezron begat Ram, and Ram begat Amminadab,
20 And Amminadab begat Nahshon, and Nahshon begat Salmon,
21 And Salmon begat Boaz, and Boaz begat Obed,
22 And Obed begat Jesse, and Jesse begat David.

12th Generation is David - who became the King of Israel. Well one Bible Scholar actually commented that god had planned to give Isreal a king long before Isreal actually asked for one. So When Isreal asked for a king delete

God gave them a king in saul .. though it was not in his plan.. we all eventually know wat happened.. Israel had enough of saul as a king.. and then under gods chosen King David.. Isreal pospered.. Many a times in our life.. we force god to answer our prayers with fervent fasting and prayers.. always remember if it is not is his time.. it will have its own consequence.. so wait patiently for his time and u will see tat all things go good for u..

Now a chapter from my life.. i am on visit visa here in dubai for the last 2 years.. ever since i came from india.. i joined a company first for 3 months as a trainee.. they could not stamp my visa.. god gave me a better job with a company in sharjah.. i was so eager to stamp my visa with them.. coz i had a car but could not drive.. coz i did not have license.. but it kept on prolonging for no reason.. after 9 months in the firm i requested for a pay hike and they were not willing.. i prayed to god..

god worked for me.. i was offered a job with a british company in dubai and got a real good offer with a good post.. then i thought. if i had stamped my visa with them i was sure.. i would not have been able to get out.. now with the new company i am still waiting for my visa.. i am least worried.. coz i know my god will always have the best reserved for me..

so if ur reading this and ur havin a feelin tat god has not answered ur prayers.. dear friend do not worry.. fret not god says.. he will everythin so perfect in his time.. God bless you..

LIVING YOUR LIFE WITHOUT SIN

There was a little girl, who's father was a pastor.

One day, she came to her father and said, "Daddy, can a person go their
Whole life without sinning?"

The father answered, "No, dear, I'm sorry, but that's just not
possible."

"What about a year, daddy? Can a person go a whole year without
sinning?" She continued.

"No, I don't think that's possible either."

"What about a day, can a person go a day without sinning once?"

"It's very unlikely, no, I don't think they can."

"What about one moment, daddy, can a person go one moment without
sinning?"

"Yes, that is possible."

"Then daddy, I want to live my life, moment by moment."

Isn't that how we should live our lives. Not looking ahead to our
whole lives, or distant plans. But live moment by moment, as if this moment
where Your last one before you reach eternity.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Its Not us..

Well i thought i should write more on attitude.. well when we do somethin in life.. its not thought at the first place that it would turn out to be wrong.. take it as a learning experiance.. wat u learn from one situation in life .. use to live on another.. show urself that ur a good learner.. never live with the thought that u ve commited a mistake and u can never make out of it all together.. like the famous ad words.. " Life is Precious Waste it Not"...

Attitude

What ever we do in life.. attitude is all which matters.. You can see a glass half filled with water in two different ways... Half filled or Half empty.. it depends on the person who is viewing tha glass.. In our life we come across different situations.. situations where we may seem totally lost.. or even have doubts of coming out of it.. then outts of no where the attitude to succeed .. or to come through will solely keep u alive.. Havent heard of stories of people making it through worse than death situations... yes tats not coz of luck.. its so coz they had the will to survive.. will to come throught the worse in life..

Ever feel let down n life.. do not worry.. look at like the half filled glass.. yes at the end the tunnel is always.. life.. and yes at the end of the tunnel u will find ur life.. so just walk through it wid a smile and u may actually feel tat it aint anythin @ all.. Keep smiling..

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Liked this one..

Kisi ke pyar mein gehri chot khayi hai,
Wafa se pehle hi bewafai payi hai.
Log mangte hai duwa is haal mein marne ki,
Par humne uski yaado mein jeene ki kasam khayi hai...


Log mohabbat ko khuda kehte hai,
Agar koi kare to use ilzaam dete hai.
Kehte hai ke pathar dil roya nahi karte,
Fir kyu pahado se jharne gira karte hai...


Karoge fariyad guzre zamane ko,
Tarsoge hamare saath ek palbitane ko,
Phir aawaz doge hame aane ko,
Hum kahenge darwaaza nahi hai kabar se bahar aane ko...


Mohabbat mein maine kya kuch nahi luta diya,
Unko pasand thi roshni Aur hamne khud ko jala diya...


Badduaen le raha hoo is bedard jamane ki.
Yahi sazaa mili hai unhe apne dil me basane ki.
Isliye e yaar mere karna na kabhi tu khata.
Kisi haseen chehre se ek pal bhi nazar milane ki...


Tadap utha bhi to zalim teri duhaari na du,
Main Zakham Zakham hu phir bhi tujhe dikhaai na du,
Tere badan me dhadakne laga hu dil ki tarah,
Ye aur baat hain ki ab tujhe sunaai na du.....


Jeena chahte hai

Mirror of Life

Walking down the alley..
I look to the left and to the right..
I see a child .. with eyes so cute..
Looking at me.. with his eyes
having a story to tell

A story which i thought was so true..
He who has .. "has"
He who doent have ... "stay so"
Is it me.. or everything around me..

A smile from your heart ..
A lending hand .. to rise me up..
Yarning to walk .. more than run..
Make myself a family..
a family worth.. living for.. caring for..

Help me.. i am not myself.. i am every ..
a person .. who needs to and tries..
to make life my own..

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Women & Men

Can a woman really drive a man crazy?
It depends on the man. If he is wise he becomes a henpecked husband;
if he is not so wise, then there is no other way than to be crazy.
That's why ninety-nine point nine percent of men decide to be
henpecked husbands ? just to survive.
Nothing is wrong with the woman; she is not deliberately trying to
drive you crazy. It is just that their minds function in a totally
different way. In fact that is their attraction; their polarities
function like a magnetic field. The more different a woman is, the
more she will attract you. If she is like you, thinks the way you
think, the attraction will be lost. There will be no tension; the
relationship will collapse.
The relationship is like an arch. When you make an arch you put bricks
against each other; their very opposition creates the strength, and
the arch can support the whole building. But the strength depends on
the opposition.
A living relationship between a man and a woman is bound to be a
little bit crazy. The man cannot drive the woman crazy because his
argument, his way of thinking, is logical. The woman's way of thinking
is illogical, but that is her way; that's how she is made. She
functions instinctively at the lowest and intuitively at the highest.
Man functions intellectually at the lowest and intelligently at the
highest. The way of instinct and intuition is the way of illogic.
Logic cannot drive the illogical person crazy; if anything is going to
happen it is going to happen to the logical mind.
Craziness is part of the logical mind. Craziness simply means your
logic is no more functioning and you are at a loss what to do. You
love the woman, you would not like to lose her. You try in every way
to understand her. But whatsoever you do, you are also helpless ? you
can do only logically. And logically she is not comprehensible; that
way she is very mysterious. You can devote your whole life to studying
a single woman and you will not be able to figure out what is what.
She never tries to understand you. The illogical functioning of the
psyche is not interested in understanding; it simply reaches to the
conclusions without any procedures ? it jumps to the conclusions. And
the miracle is that the woman is almost always right, and you are
almost always wrong. That drives you crazy!
A woman won the lottery. When the husband came he was surprised. He
asked how she managed. She said, "In a dream the figure 7 appeared
three times. So I figured out that three times seven means
twenty-eight."
The husband was aghast. He said, "Then what happened?"
She said, "I purchased the ticket with the number twenty-eight and I
won the lottery."
The husband said, "But three times seven is not twenty-eight, it is twenty-one!"
The woman said, "Then you be the mathematician, but I have won the lottery!"
If you watch the functioning of the woman's mind you can see it
clearly: it is impossible to understand it. The very effort will drive
you crazy. It is not just accidental that Buddha escaped from his
wife, Mahavira escaped from his wife. You cannot escape from the
world. Where will you escape to? At the most you can escape from the
woman who is driving you crazy.
A woman can really drive a man crazy, but still your cooperation will be needed.
Without your cooperation nobody can drive you crazy. If you stop
trying to understand her and start enjoying her, she cannot drive you
crazy. If you try to understand her, naturally you will stop enjoying
her, and then she is bound to drive you crazy.
Rejoice in her! Rejoice in her differences, rejoice in her different
approaches towards life. Rejoice that she is not a man but a woman.
She does not think like you. Not only is her body different from
yours, her psyche is also different. And once you forget trying to
understand her, there is no way for her to drive you crazy.
When you are "with your woman, put your mind aside. Become more
existential and less intellectual. Love her, dance with her, sing with
her, but don't try to argue with her. As far as argument is concerned,
always agree with her and you will never be at a loss. And anyway,
even if you argue, finally you will have to agree with her.

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

Internation Womens Day -- Wish from my Heart..

Today is International Womens Day.. and i am finding it real difficult to express in words ..about this one package.. called women..

well i believe.. tat .. god has blessed us all giving us a partner in women... a friend in a women.. a lover in a women.. most of all some one who can understand us more than ourselves.. And all i can say is .. if they were not dere.. cant even imagine how life would be like.. imagine ..

Somethin to think .. am not being sugar coated.. here.. but the simple.. truth.. life would never have been wat it was if it wasnt for them.. here is from my hear... THANK YOU for being.. dere..

Sunday, March 4, 2007

Truly Devotional

how can u define being devotional?? is it like being like really devotional... be strong for ur religion.. is it stand up for ur religion in a crowd.. is it speaking abt ur religion to another person..?? i ve got a million questions to add to this..

but for me .. being devotional.. is look at another person with love from your heart.. able to support a person who is in real need.. help a poor guy.. have god in u.. i think tats wat truly .. devotional means..

Thursday, March 1, 2007

Living in a life..

I often wonder.. when is it that anyone gone understand.. what it means to live a life.. when is it that someone is gone understand that what ever you do is not coz ur the bad guy.. its jst coz u want to have a life on ur own.. some times.. in life.. we make some choices.. some of it good and some of it bad.. how would u know.. wat decision is right and wrong.. i often wander late into the night.. often thinking on this...

i came to know later.. that most decisions that we take are based on our age.. Put a person who probably is 30 and 25 in the same situation.. i mostly believe that the guy who is 15 make a quicker decision which means he is willing to those chances which an older person may not want to take.. he is more careful..

why i am writing.. am not feelin good.. somethin is seriously missin in my life.. and i feel.. i may.. just break aparttttttt...

TRULY MADLY DEEPLY (Savage Garden) ---

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful 'cos
I'm counting on A new beginning.
A reason for living. A deeper meaning.

I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me...

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of..
The highest power. In lonely hours. The tears devour you..

I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...

Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'cos it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do...

I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...



I want to stand with you on a mountain....

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Four Seasons in One Day.. Crowded House

Four seasons in one day
Lying in the depths of your imagination
Worlds above and worlds below
The sun shines on the black clouds hanging over the domain

Even when youre feeling warm
The temperature could drop away
Like four seasons in one day

Smiling as the shit comes down
You can tell a man from what he has to say
Everything gets turned around
And I will risk my neck again, again

You can take me where you will
Up the creek and through the mill
All the things you cant explain
Four seasons in one day

Blood dries up
Like rain, like rain
Fills my cup
Like four seasons in one day

It doesnt pay to make predictions
Sleeping on an unmade bed
Finding out wherever there is comfort there is pain
Only one step away
Like four seasons in one day

Blood dries up
Like rain, like rain
Fills my cup
Like four seasons in one day

NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU (Glenn Medeiros)

NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU (Glenn Medeiros)

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

(Chorus 1)
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

(Chorus 2)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

(Chorus 3)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

when is anyone gonna understand

We all live our lives just the way others want us to.. have we ever wondered when we are gonna live for ourselves. i often ask myself if wat i do make any sense to me in my life.. well if we do anythin @ all for us.. we ve got answer a thousand people as to y we did .. it.. When is anyone gona understand.. wat each of us need.??? is dat ever gonna happen??

A nice thought... not mine..

Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible
because
u think that
he/she
doesn't miss u?

Missing someone is terrible but at the same time,
a
sweet feeling.

U will be sitting around wondering if u meant
anything to him/her.

Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.

Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that
it's
him/her.

Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will
surprise u by
appearing
downstairs.

Sitting in front of the television but thinking of
him/her,

missing the final episode of your favorite show.

Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u
were
out together.

Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the
stars again,

talking about everything, your dreams,
plans,future.

Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her
online.

When u realise that he/she isn't online and did
not
return your mail,

u will start worrying if he/she is okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.

It exposes u to loneliness.

It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let
u
know that there is

actually a feeling known as emptiness.

Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.

U know that u really care and u indulge in the
feeling of loving/caring
for
him/her.

But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is
feeling the same is
terrible.

U feel as if u are being left alone.

So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them
know.

At the same time, ask if they miss u.

Don't let the feeling of missing someone become
jealousy or paranoia.

If u are the one being missed and u know it, let
the
other party know.

If u miss him/her too, tell them. Don't let them
wait.

And if the one you are missing can't/doesn't
reciprocate,

MOVE ON !!

Life is short, so instead of being hurt & waiting
around-Move on!!

Belive in Urself & life, there's someone out there
waiting to miss U
too!! J

Friday, February 23, 2007

Breath of life

Every Breath i take..
Tells a story so so new..
Every step i take..
Makes a take never told before..
Every thought i make..
Makes a feeling so different..
Every glance.. i take..
New vision ... in my life..

A thought... a feeling..
which can never be told..
A thought...a feeling..
which can only .. be felt..
disance apart.. thoughts away..
may be u.. close to my heart..
than me myself will u be forever..
with all ma hear..
ur the breath of my life..

Feelings.. over with ones heart..

Though we all have families.. some of us are husbands , wifes.. a few fortunates.. ones have love in their life.. but then dont we all feel alone in some point in time.. wats it tat we do then.. we may not able to talk to anyone.. express how we feel.. do we have friends to look upto.. most of the time.. even they may never have time for us..

well then a few tips.. its not wrong to express urself.. get wild at urself..talk to ones own self.. a few tears.. a small smile.. a big laugh.. a pleasent breeze.. a song from the heart..a poem.. a smile at a person whom u may never know.. it sure will make your heart feel so relieved.. more than tat.. u would know tat ur may be alone.. but u stil have urself for company....

One world... one thought..

Ever.. thought.. y god has created.. just one planet earth.. and not different planets.. for man to live on .. its coz he wants to see all men together.. not with those cheap differennces of skin color and creed.. all of us inhabitants of this big house called planet earth.. do we will kill each other wen we fight over in our houses.. we most of the time.. talk it over.. is tat not wat we are supposed to be doing.... than blowing ourself.. and killing hundreds.. for a cause which we belive.. in .. lets try and make our home.. planet.. earth beautiful in itself..

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Another Year over..

well the truth of the fact.. i am gettin older.. well its more like scary.. alright jokes apart.. it was indeed a blessed year ... well enjoyed loads of new blessings.. new job.. new friends.. most of all thank god.. for the most blessed family and all the blessings.. hope the new year is great............. too.. need to write more..

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Friendship & Love

Well here is somethin new which i learned today.. friendship with love.. is always.. important than friendship alone.. coz if someone is ur friend.... true friend i mean.. tat person has to love u.. to be more than a friend.. and as the sayin goes.. a friend in need is a friend in deed.. smile and cheers

wishing.............

sometimes.. wats tat which is always needed.... is friendship ... not love.. i am sure for now.. friends.. hope some of them will always .. be dere..

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Another Day...

Valentines today... well it has become more commercial than .. a feeling.. i do believe that if u do really love someone.. you do not have to wait for a special day to express that feeling.. well today i do not know how many new couples are gonna be born.. guys picking up guts out of nowhere to speak to the gal of their dreams.. and women flock flooded with gifts.. probably the florist would have the best buisness today... well wat ever.. the real meaning of love is .. Valentines every day.. aint life.. worth it..

Feeling for someone special

whenever i ve been close to my friends.. its been from deep within my heart.. today i feel for my best friend..a friend who has been there wid me wen i was alone.. someone who would walk upto in my office in india.. pull me out of chair and drag me for lunch or breakfast.. i lost contact wid her wen i came here.. no mistake from my side.. she got busy wid her work and her number changed.. and she lost my number.. today i get a mail from her after so long.. she asked of me and my well being.. felt happy.. and i enquired for her.. she told me she got married.. i felt so happy for her.. and then she tel me he is no more.. my sadness knew no bounds.. coz she is someone who was so close to me.. why does god do such things to people who are so nice.. my prayers and wishes are wid her always.. as a good forever..

Monday, February 12, 2007

Valentines around the corner

I do not know how many of us live by this one day.. considered for love.. well as far as i see .. i see it as a day million of dollars are gained in the commercial market.. due to this one day.. well as for me everyday is a valentines.. ur love should be fresh and special for everyday .. not jst on feb 14th..

How many of us know why valentines is celebrated ?? here are a few things good to know abt valentines...

1.Valentine's Day honors two different saints named Valentine. However, customs for the holiday have nothing to do with the lives of these saints. The customs come from the ancient Roman festival called Lupercalia, which took place on February 15.
"Every February, across the country, candy, flowers, and gifts are exchanged between loved ones, all in the name of St. Valentine. But who is this mysterious saint and why do we celebrate this holiday?"

2.The popular customs associated with Saint Valentine's Day undoubtedly had their origin in a conventional belief generally received in England and France during the Middle Ages, that on 14 February, i.e. half way through the second month of the year, the birds began to pair. Valentine's Day celebration dates back to the ancient times when the 'Feast of Lupercal' was celebrated in the honour of the Roman God of Fertility. This day falls on the 15th of February every year.The 'first true Valentine card' was sent by Charles, duke of Orleans, to his wife in 1415 when he was imprisoned in the Tower of London. February 14 is Valentine's Day. Although it is celebrated as a lovers' holiday today, with the giving of candy, flowers, or other gifts between couples in love, it originated in 5th Century Rome as a tribute to St. Valentine, a Catholic bishop. There are varying opinions as to the origin of Valentine's Day. Some experts state that it originated from St. Valentine, a Roman who was martyred for refusing to give up Christianity. He died on February 14, 269 A.D., the same day that had been devoted to love lotteries.

3.European Valentine
A young Frenchman, Charles, Duke of Orleans, was one of the earliest creators of valentines, called "poetical or amorous addresses." From his confinement in the Tower of London after the Battle of Agincourt in 1415, he sent several poems or rhymed love letters or "valentines" to his wife in France.


Well as for me this valentines.. aint very special.. but i wil be gettin to talk to a friend far.. away.. Wishin u all a very happy valentines.. day.. this is me.. being myself..

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Another day has gone...

i am not a great fan of Micheal Jackson.. but this.. one song.

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...


yes if ur readin my blog ur not alone.. well i am alone.. this valentine.. stil i ve got this song wid me..

a day without Gtalk

i dont know for some reason my gtalk is nt workin .. and it feels like hell cant talk to any of my friends.. and i feel like hell.. well i cant do anythin abt it.. need to wait till its fixed.. atleast .. the irony is the whole damn thing.. is workin for the guy who is sittin next to me..

Friday, February 9, 2007

cricket...

well i was watchin aus vs england..glen mgrath.. misses a catch.. and then comes to bowl and then he starts abusing the batsman .. wen he gets one close.. to the batsman.. i dont understand the same sreeshanth did on the india.. tour.. and every one made a big fuss out of it... racial discrimination..

Thursday, February 8, 2007

Back to writing blogs..

well i did not write my blogs for the last 2 weeks.. caught up by work for almost 2 weeks.. which means i was even working during the nights.. well now that i ve completed almost 75% of the work.. i should be back to doin wat i love doing best.. writing blogs..

well here goes.. dubai has been awesome for the last few weeks.. raining ... climate is too perfect.. feel like i am in some climate made for romance.. since i am single.. does not hold good for me.. still as a citizen of this planet.. i am sure.. i did enjoy the climate to the best.. well those walks around the corniche real refreshin.. wats more.. loved it walkin in the drizzle.. may be tats the reason the reason for the flu around..got to be careful these days not to catch one.. well the best medicine.. 2 panadols with.. loads of prayer... :).. have a nice day guys..

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Caught by the Camera...

Dubai.. boasts of some the best roads in the world.. unfortunately.. it also boasts of the biggest traffic congestion ever seen by mankind.. yep tats true.. well some of us .. who hate this traffic.. find roads.. which cover a larger distance.. for instance.. from my home to the office is 60KMs.. but i travel (not me driving my driver ofcourse) around 115KM to avoid this traffic.. and this road was never monitored by RADAR..now.. the GOVT has put up camera to check the speeds on this road.. damn on an open freeway u cross 80km/hr and u end up paying.. 200DHs.. fine.. a slap on the poor drivers stomach.. when are these people goin to learn..

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Survival of the Fittest

three days.. i was alone @ home.. and truly it was survival of the fittest.. had to do all the chores myself.. i make tea and find no sugar in the house.. then wen i buy and come back.. tea is spilled all over.. over boiled.. then.. washin .. fun it was.. put too much surf... hehehe.. then waking up.. damn three alarms.. else one would have been sufficient.. coz tat would wake up everyone in the house.. and they would wake me inturn.. cant wait.. mom and dad are gonna be back today.. good food.. i can already smell it.. :)..

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Back in Dubai

Feels good to be back... the short vacation has turned out to be a real long one.. now that i am back feels like i am in my home.. and today here i am at my office.. after the vacation .. it feels like i ve taken so much responsibility all of a sudden.. ve got loads of pending work.. have to figure out a way to finish em one @ a time..

Saturday, January 13, 2007

My Grandfather… May his soul rest in peace..

I ve known my granddad since my young days.. I was never born with a silver spoon in my mouth.. my grand father had Eight Children, 3 of them died on birth excluding them he has 5 sons and 1 daughter… well most of abt him which I came to know was from what my father told me, it seems he used to rule the house with an iron fist, made sure that all his children listened to him and he made sure no matter what no one in the house slept hungry, in his younger days he was known for his valor.. he would stand on wat ever he believed was the truth and hence gained the respect of all those around him..

Well now from my experience.. I was a naughty guy in my early days.. well he used to pamper me a lot..my dad was in the gulf working.. so I was wid him during my younger days.. he used to take me on long.. rides on his cycles.. and on the way back he would stop at the bakers.. place and buy me stuff.. tat I liked.. It was nice.. bein wid him.. once my mom .. got really angry @ me for .. something.. wrong which I had done.. he told my mom not to beat me and explain to me right and wrong.. well I thought he was on my side.. and was on a roller coaster ride of child hood pranks.. once I did something so wrong.. and wen I saw him go for a stick to get me .. I ran thinking he would never catch me.. boy he ran through the paddy.. and got me.. and gave me real good spankings with the stick.. he then pampered me the whole night.. he used to love me more than I could imagine.. after I left to dubai.. he used to always look forward for those short vacations which we got to be together.. I used to always astonish.. @ the way he tackles people and provides for solution for those around him..

Well as time got through.. he got old.. he fell sick.. but trust me he would never let the sickness rule him.. his prayer life was his success.. he would never lie stil for a long time.. well he got some close calls.. but he would make it out all the time.. I met him wen he was serious so many time before.. but his smile and the way he talked to us.. would make us feel tat he would make it out without any problem.. not this time though.. I came and met him he was in the hospital.. had the chance to be wid him and take care of him.. and give him all tat he wants.. we brought him home yesterday.. well today morning.. his condition became real bad.. well he was surrounded.. by all his children and grand children.. and all his neighbors.. he slept peacefully into his rest @ 10:30 am.. well the lose that he has created can never be filled.. but I know for sure one thing.. I would love to attain an end like his.. a end with so much hope and peace..

Well he has set an exemplary way for us to follow and I hope that I too can follow in his steps… His funeral will take place.. on Monday.. I will not be there to take place in it.. but.. I am sure.. it will be a blessed service.. and I am sure his soul is with father resting in his eternal peace..

Love u granddad ……. Ur the best and there will be none like u.. to fill that empty space u leave in our hearts… I know for sure one day I will meet u on that shore of grace… I am gonna miss u .. and I know u will be watching me from up there………….

Thursday, January 11, 2007

A real indian Journey

i had to travel to trivandrum from home town.. today.. wel its like 90Kms from my house.. i decided to travel by bus.. and well i must say i had nice fun.. leavin aside the rickety ride.. even if we get to travel in the best of comforts.. a lifes journey is never complete without a ride on an indian bus...

Tuesday, January 9, 2007

Another Train Journey

well the last journey was on a local train... this time i got an express train.. 2633.. Trivandrum mail.. last minute travel plans.. so got a ticket.. on tatqal.. had to pay a little more than normal.. 3 rd class AC.. Well i get the upper berth.. cool comfort of the AC.. and rockin motion perfect for sleep.. well before i could do tat.. i had to get introduced to throse travellin wid me..hes been on the train for the last 3 days it seems.. travellin from assam.. then this couple.. on their way back home after seein their son in chennai.. then.. another person who never talked @ all.. and a lady who appeared totally lost and she never spoke .. well i did not think they were great people to travel wid.. so.. went to sleep... right away.. and woke up an hour just before my station.. indeed a comfortable journey.. thanks to southern railways..

Monday, January 8, 2007

Back to gods own country

i was to leave india.. tomo.. now..change in plans.. travellin to kerala.. gods own contry.. my dads old man is not keeping.. good.. am sure he wil be fine.. hes one of my favs... the one who used to me ride all over the town on his cycle.. tats how i have this great passion for bikes.. and well one more thing.. he used to treat me almost evert day outside .. hence my passion for food.. hahaha.. then damn he used to love me more than all his grand children.. hes really someone special in ma life.. love u grand pa .. >:D<

Sunday, January 7, 2007

From a bleeding Heart..

What else this heart have
Else than tears.........

what else does heart have..
no matter wat to forgive and forget..

Then comes the question..
how much can this week heart take..

a life full of sadness
a life full of tears
one thing has my heart learned..
never to give up hope
no matter how far life takes u..

Expectations..

I dont expect anythin from anyone .. but sometime those whom u expect the most give u so much pain tat u feel so hurt .. i ve learned from some my experiances.. if u want to lead a life with little worries.. u need to learn never expect anythin from anyone.. no matter how close the person is to u..

Train travel

today i travelled by train ie an inter city train.. after a period of almost 3 years.. it felt nice.. esp the crowd pushing and pulling.. then there is mobile entertainment.. dance with music on the train.. u need to a rupee out of ur kind heart if u do care for the small gurl who was dancing.. then dere is samosa for sale.. 1rs. 1 samosa.. then chai.. then.. 3 pens for 10 bucks.. plastic gadgets.. well awesome journey which lasted 40Mins and the whole cost. 6rs.. cool.. Mera apun ka India..

Friday, January 5, 2007

A poem from my Heart

I love you by choice
And not by chance
I felt something for you
right from the start

Lets go rejoice
In what we feel
for each other
What we feel
is so real
Your in my thoughts
You have brought me
Awakening desire
I never knew was there
Here I stand with only
Love to share

How dare I care
With someone so dear
To give me a lending ear
There is no to be
So near when your here

Thinking of Download.. Think of limewire

Limewire...... well they say "The Internet" is full of resources.. but still wen searching for some of them stuff i ve wanted.. not meaning porn here guys.. ve nver really came acros.. then come across this gentle man.. he says his name is limewire and asks me y not try me out.. i am like are u comin @ no cost @ all.. Yes he say.. boy i download it and run it.. here i am gettin all those stuff tat i wanted.. even those songs.. which i could not find for the last few years.. thanks limewire

Reunion ---- Not in a cafe.. den where.. Online

wel i ve always missed some of my school friends.. and many of my college friends.. but then often wished.. how it would be if we could we could meet up and spend some time together.. talk abt all the stuff we did in college.. well one fine day i find.. orkut is no longer blocked in dubai.. and i reagister myself.. in like 2 months i ve spoken to all my friends.. yesterday i come across my best friend online.. and hes in london.. today.. i feel very happy talkin to him.. wat more has orkut gifted me with......... some really nice new friends.. whom have become really close wid.. and they care for me today.. its feels so nice.. to have found myself a place online.. and my old lost friends..

Lifes Moves on

wat ever happens.. in our life.. apart from watever we wish.. life still moves.. on.. i ve had several ambitions.. from bein a truck driver to an auto driver.. then train driver.. then pilot then astronaut..all seem to be fantasies of the age tat i was in.. we all dream .. not all of them happens to happen.. but then life moves on .. does it not.. it always has to move on.. No matter.. keep smiling.. and enjoyin wat ever we do..

Thursday, January 4, 2007

Paying for someone Mistakes

I left on a short vacation and i am here in india now.. payin for someones mistake which could have been easily avoided had the person who was responsible been more careful.. well always need to know one thing.. if we are careless in the smallest of things .. someone somewhere is gona pay for it.. for no fault of his.. so lets take a decision to be more.. careful or atleast try to be careful.

Monday, January 1, 2007

This one is for My real good friend

I am not writing this one for myself.. but for my real good friend.. Love which we come .. across .. may not always become ours.. but for one thing.. if tat love realyl was meant for us.. it wil reach us no matter what.. it can never be taken away from us.. well if we lost.. it.. should be happy.. for one.. both of u .. loved each other.. and those memories.. wil let u walk a long way.. should u ever feel sad.. well those memories.. wil bring a smile back on ur face.. and always remember.. it aint worth thinking abt the love u lost.. but worth living for the love u will gain.. coz u have us as ur friends.. wil always be dere .. if u ever feeel let down.. so keep smiling buddy.. :).. Main Hoon Na Dosth Tera..

New World Order

Well .. imagining a world.. where we could time .. travel.. where our thoughts..are right infront of us.. imagining.. a new world order.. Happines.. Love.. No Hatred.. No Killings.. can this ever Happen.. Yes it surely can.. ever noticed.. how a new born baby smiles.. when he is thrown up in the air.. he trust the hand which has thrown his so much.. so do we have to.. trust the hands which made us.. learn to become a child once.. again.. live the age of innocence once again..